Roy
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For those I love, I will not lose!
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Post by Roy on Aug 13, 2011 9:19:46 GMT -5
Roy listened to her words, without responding. He didn't know what to say because he was afraid of hurting her even more. He knows what she feels, he knows it too well. But even though he does, its not helping him a bit.
The only thing thats really helping is time. Time to wash away the wounds. But there is no way he could be this blunt to say this to her.
And then she started crying.
"... Feeling guilty? If I don't feel guilty, this means that its all your fault. But do you really think that you have to stand up and pay for the decisions your heart makes?"
He reached for her shoulder, hoping that she would open her eyes again. "I have to feel guilty, more like I want to feel guilty. In order to make it easier for you.."
Roy shoved a little bit closer to her, to make her feel comfortable, and then.. did the only thing that had to be done when words were failing. He sang.
"What if it makes you sad at me? And what if it makes you laugh now but you cry as you fall asleep? And what if it takes your breath And you can't hardly breathe? And what if it makes the last sound be the very best sound?
What if what I want makes you sad at me? And is it all my fault or can I fix it please? Cause you know that I’m always all for you Cause you know that I’m always all for you"
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Saiya
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If you want to make your surrounding happy, just smile.
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Post by Saiya on Aug 17, 2011 20:22:48 GMT -5
She shook her head, wiping her tears away as she sniffs. "It would be easier for me.... if you won't feel guilty." she mumbled, looking solemnly at his way. "Stupid as it may be, it will make me more okay... if you weren't guilty," she glanced away from him.
Not wanting to look anymore at those remorse eyes he held. And then, his voice suddenly came up, singing. She look up at him dazed, as he finishes the last words. Her eyes only landed on his. She couldn't comprehend what are those for...
She suddenly look down, pursing her lips to say anything. She doesn't know what to think anymore. "You... sang good," she complimented softly, looking down at her fidgeted hands. That was the only thing she could say, because if she spoke another thing about her feelings... its as if it wouldn't stop to no end at all.
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Roy
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For those I love, I will not lose!
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Post by Roy on Sept 16, 2012 9:29:59 GMT -5
When Roy had finished Saiya broke the glance that she held on him again. It took her a while before she let out her faint reply. And then she stayed silent, not looking at him anymore. It was as if he broke her even more instead of calming her down.
Yet she said that he shouldn't feel guilty, for her sake. But what could he do then? Suddenly something hit him. A feeling as he has reached the end of the line. Slowly he let go of Saiya and lowered his arms to give her more space.
He didn't want to leave her like this, but maybe it was for the better?
He opened his mouth so say something, yet he couldn't.
A few minutes passed before he addressed her again, but it wasn't what he actually had in mind before. "Hey.. it's kind of late. I think we should call it a day fow now.... Don't you think?" With his last words he looked over to her again. The girl who sat in front of him, appearing so absent and wound up in her feelings.
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Saiya
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If you want to make your surrounding happy, just smile.
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Post by Saiya on Sept 16, 2012 20:31:31 GMT -5
She sighed softly, looking down; this time it was way awkward for the both of them. She looked down trying to established any topic that would make it feel like her confession never happened; though she couldn't make up any at all.
Once Roy pulled away, it made her more... free from the heart ache. She look up at Roy, those crimson red eyes she have always opened to see his face. Opening her eyes to see him. She smiled assuring, patting his shoulder.
"This really has been a long day to us..." she let out and nodded to herself. "Sure... we should take a rest..." she answered looking down at Gwen and smiled. "Such a heavy sleeper she was..." she murmured as she once again look at Roy.
"Oyasumi,"
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Roy
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For those I love, I will not lose!
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Post by Roy on Mar 21, 2014 19:23:19 GMT -5
"Good......night" Roy slowly let out and he finally broke their eye contact for the last time.
He turned around and made himself comfortable on his cloak, making sure to not turn around to Saiya another time. Roy didn't want to make her feel any more uncomfortable than he already did...
Letting out a deep breath he reached for his chest and grabbed tight into his shirt. It was almost like he could feel Saiyas pain...
For a moment he was sure that he would give anything for being able to runaway right now and never look back again, but he knew that he couldn't do that to Saiya... not now. That's why he decided to leave early in the morning, before Saiya wakes up and sees him... yes... it will be for the best...
And with these thoughts Roy slowly drifted into sleep.
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Mar 25, 2014 3:15:28 GMT -5
She smiled, not reaching her eyes; she sighed as Roy broke their eye contact, starting to turn around and rest. She closed her eyes, raising her head up so the tears won't continue to fall down. She knew to herself that she wouldn't move on that fast, she'll find a way though. But at least, she knew where she stand now from the two of them. She knew now that despite this happened, they will still be friends. Well... there will still the awkward ways, but it was phase.
Looking at the back of Roy, he was letting out a normal breathing; indicating he was asleep. She knew he will leave her early in the morning, but of course, she will beat that. She don't want him to wake up and saw her there... because she knows he hurts as well.
"It's alright, Roy-kun, everything will be okay..." she murmured softly, crawling quietly until she is an inches away from him, she leaned into his face, kissing his cheek softly. She smiled painfully, as she leave his place; sighing painfully as she looked up at the moon, shining so bright.
"Goodbye..."
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