Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 24, 2011 14:34:42 GMT -5
Roy couldn't break the look into her eyes when she offered him to help in the very best she could. That sentence sent a slow shiver down his spine. After all they were still that close. Even now, or maybe because of her words Roy wasn't able to bring out any word out of his mouth. Slowly Saiyas face expression broke, Roy could see that. And she didn't take long to sink into his chest again after turning away.
Closing his eyes, Roy let out a sigh. "I'm sorry to bother you with that.." He said before he hushed completely. What is he doing here anyway? He didn't know. Holding a beautiful girl in his arms, and constantly kept thinking about someone else. Saiya wasn't Syani of course, he knew that. She is very mature, but quite reserved while Syani is always hiding her feelings behind her childish facade. That admirable facade. But fact is, that she isn't here. Who knows where she is at the moment and what she is doing with whom right now. But fact is that she will never be in Saiyas place.
Did he hide himself behind his feelings, too afraid to take another look behind the glass? The glass that seemed to let appear everything so clear. And while locked up like this, he didn't notice that people close to him, like Saiya, most likely developed feelings that he still refuses to live again? Or was he just afraid. Afraid to take these familiar steps again that could lead into something far beyond the lines of his imagination.
Maybe he was... 'Yes, I am.'
So everything that remained behind the glass to solve the puzzle, were the feelings he kept for Syani. Are they real or just a farce?
How are you supposed to know that?
By now his embrace has tightened a bit and then he finally spoke. "I think.... I still love her..... but I don't know."
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 25, 2011 10:30:32 GMT -5
She sighed, taking a glance at Roy once in a while. Roy have been thinking over whether for him to tell or sort out his feelings. Saiya waited patiently, she always does; and she will never get tired to wait. Because patience and persistence have already set in her mind.
She was that... well, proper. Though, what she didn't know, Roy's answer would and might break her heart. She readied for everything... though she does not know if she would accept everything that would Roy will throw unto her.
She looked at Gwen who have those peaceful look while sleeping; she couldn't help but smiled. Her thoughts were drifted through the things happened to her.
She suddenly paused when she looked at Roy with those big ruby eyes in curiosity.
"I think..."
She hummed slightly for him to continue, and so he did as she look at him a bit stunned. Her heart suddenly pained, as if someone stabbed her from the back for her to feel the pain. Her mind couldn't process... or she don't want to process the words Roy let out.
She suddenly giggles and smiled, her eyes were closed but held the supporting look at Roy. "M-Maa, maa... Roy-kun," she mumbled, though she felt the sudden tight of Roy's embrace. "It's okay that you told me you love her... because the look in your eyes told it so..." she let out, suddenly sighing; starting to escape from his tight hug as she took a sit just next to him. "Though I'm quite confuse why are you confuse too... you love her but what? It's kinda confusing and disturbing, Roy-kun..." she answered, she looked at the fire and sooner or later the fire will diminish.
"Eh, look at that... the fire is going to ran out..." she murmured and look at Roy. She look around the place, it's really dark and the only light that gives to them is the fireplace they built in a triangular form with the woods she and Gwen pick.
"Wait for me... I'll interrogate you later after I pick some woods that would sustain until tomorrow..." she let out, hurriedly running near some bushes and trees. She glanced a bit at Roy and grinned, "Watch Gwen for me, ne?" she let out loud as she ran a bit far from Roy.
"Watashi no kokoro ga itai..." she let out, placing her hand to where her heart was. Her heart is aching... she could well feel it, but she tried not to cry; not to let tears fall... because Roy would only worry and might feel guilty. Knowing Roy, even for a short time... he's also a worried freak; she doesn't want it to be.
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 25, 2011 11:54:53 GMT -5
From one moment to another, Roy had broken the magic that engulfed the two of them. Sadly, he didn't realize it when he should. Saiyas words of understanding only covered what she hid behind her closed eyes. With his words, Roy had brought back the old Saiya again.
How could she judge from the look in his eyes though? Did she read his mind to answer the question for him? When she escaped from his embrace Roy was already getting a faint idea what going on, but he was still far away from realizing it.
Blinking at her Roy tried to explain "I.. am confused, because I don't know if I do. You may be seeing something in my eyes, but is that really what I feel? I don't know it...I am confused myself.. sorry if it...saddens you.." He slowly finished the sentence as more confusion roze up inside of him.
Is she irritated about his answer? Roy has been trying to finally find out whats going on with him, but could it be that she did not want to hear that? More like... she was wishing for something else to hear?
Without commenting his poor attempt of explaining she smiled at him and got up to take care of the fire. When her body disappeared into the darkness it struck Roy how blunt he has been. "Oh my.." He took a look at Gwen who was sleeping peacefully. "All this time.. when she hugged me...and I... her eyes.." The broken words didn't form any sentences, but in his head everything made sense, causing his stomach to pain. But it was definitely nothing compare to what Saiya is going through.
That thought of her escaping, probably leaning at some tree or sunk down on her knees sobbing bitter tears of sadness, while forcing herself to surpress any sound of it...... was awful.
Without hesistation he got on his feet, slowly wandering into the direction Saiya went off. The pitch black darkness consumed him, but it didn't take long for Roy to find a silhouette.
Slowly he was approaching her, thinking about wheather to call her name or not to do it..
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 25, 2011 12:14:10 GMT -5
Her eyebrows furrowed as she half sits on the ground, picking some dry woods so that it could help lighten the fire more. She sighed gravely, she couldn't help but think of what she have done awhile ago. She didn't know if she's oblivious or naive... or even both of it. She might or really have given Roy a clue of what she feels now.
"Maa, maa, Saiya no Baka..." she let out, suddenly smiling; she laugh as she pick another dry wood. She hummed softly as she go farther since she stayed only on the direction towards the dark area. She suddenly stood up, sensing some presence, she sighed; she doesn't want to face him for awhile.
She needed time to think more, she tried to ignore the presence; she tried to think there is no Roy in the area. She acts oblivious, "Ah! Another dry wood!" she chirped as she picks the wood. She stop, and sighed, the presence was still there. Her eyes were urging the liquid that started to form fall out. "Kusou... don't fall out... don't make me cry. Not until I feel no presence of him. Please... don't" [/i] she thought over and over in her mind. She could feel the liquid in her eyes, as she raised her head a bit to see the moon brightens as always.[/color][/blockquote]
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 25, 2011 18:22:13 GMT -5
Roy was hesitating. Have he gone overboard with his assumptions? Was it unnecessary to follow her into the dark?
When he watched her from afar she was looking like everything was okay. Saiya was also talking to herself, which seemed quite normal. Roy scratched the back of his head and relaxed. He shouldn't be so dramatic next time...
He was just about to turn away again, when Saiya raised his head... and her eyes were slightly sparkling in the moon light. Roy froze right on the spot and his guilt from before roze up again.
Slowly taking a step forward Roy spoke up. "Saiya..? You alright?"
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 25, 2011 20:18:23 GMT -5
She gently wiped those tears away as she look down and sighed, she placed down the woods beside her and yawned; stretching her arms. "What a big day... night, today it was..." she let out, while smiling; her eyes were a bit okay now. Though the pain was still in their in her heart. Its as if, the time when Ryuichi left way back in DD.
She paused, suddenly hearing Roy's worried voice. She sighed gravely, lowering her head down. "Maa, it can't be really helped. He's always a worried freak." [/i] she thought out as she took the woods into her hands, standing up; she look at Roy and smiled. "Ah! Roy-kun! I thought you're at the camp place," she let out and smiled, striding her way towards him; but her beats beating faster and the thoughts from awhile ago suddenly flashed in her mind. She paused from walking, her eyes closed but her eyebrows were frowning in confusion. "Why? What happened Roy-kun? Is there something on my face?" she asked, feeling Roy's gaze on hers intently.[/color][/blockquote]
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 26, 2011 7:46:45 GMT -5
Roy looked at her. She seemed happy when she approached him. But didn't she just wipe awa some tears? If there have been any, it was still very dark, even with the moon.
But when she stood in front of him Roy could clearly see that she wasn't the real Saiya that she tried to play. "Sorry, I thought I just check after you. And... there is nothing on your face.. don't worry." He said. Roy lead her back into the direction of the camp again, when he suddenly stopped again. She must suffer a lot...
Then Roy pluck up some courage and faced her again. "Saiya... your eyes are closed.."
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 26, 2011 8:10:24 GMT -5
Saiya smiled, "Maa... you shouldn't have too, Roy-kun. I'm perfectly fine..." she let out, nodding after while. She glanced at the wood she picked up. Suddenly having an interest at the woods rather than at Roy's, she closes her eyes she couldn't see him or his gaze looking at her.
She heard him let out, suddenly sensing him to look at her again. The moment he said that, she suddenly frowned but then smiled. "Eh...?" she let out confusedly, shaking her head. "Baka Roy-kun, I thought you said let me be myself again. This is me... the one who closes her eyes and assures everyone to be alright." she answered as she strides her way at his side.
"This facade I am showing you..." she let out, then suddenly started walking. "Is the facade and action I have when I was on DD..."
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 26, 2011 15:18:49 GMT -5
Roy looked at her in confusion, what Saiya most likely couldn't see. "But.." He started to explain his thoughts when she was already walking again. Roy followed her back to the camp, not moving his eyes from her once. Now he really started to worry. Did she.. went back into the state when he first met her again?
The fire was close to expiring when they sat down again. Roy stared into the glow. Should he just ignore what happend? But he already missed the old Saiya..
"But I mean... you have been different earlier.. when I was asking you to be your old self. You can't deny that, can you ? At least you didn't close your eyes back then...so.. whats wrong?"
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 26, 2011 19:44:23 GMT -5
Saiya, once at the camp, look at the fire that is closely diminishing. She hurriedly went near the camp fire as she placed some woods over it. Waiting for it to burn and lighten up the place they were in.
She look over at Gwen who is peacefully sleeping, she smiled at this. The fire started to lighten up as she back away a bit so she could sit beside the sleeping Gwen. She look over at Roy and tilted her head.
She chuckled at his explanations. "Anou... technically, my old self is always has her eyes not be seen by anyone. I closed my eyes awhile ago..." she answered as she looked up at the moon. "Nothing's really wrong, really..." she let out, letting her smiled of assuring escape her lips.
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 27, 2011 19:23:59 GMT -5
Roy took a stick and started to poke the glow with it as it was slowly growing again. He didn't believe Saiya. The light within her eyes that he has seen earlier has been a crystal clear memory in his head. That was prove alone that she tried to hide what she really felt. But it also must be very rough for her to still sit here with him.
For some reason she didn't Roy to find out about it, but he could understand it. So Roy should just forget what happened? Maybe it was the best if he just layed down and tried to sleep. The best for Saiya.
At the moment he sat at the opposite from Saiya, but she was occupying the blankets. Roy pondered for a second about what he should do before he leaned at the wooden tree behind him and faked a yawn. "You.....know. I am starting to get tired I think.... I think I go to sleep now"
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 27, 2011 21:00:40 GMT -5
Saiya looked down at the fire when Roy poke the woods. She opened her eyes as she look at Roy who yawned, her blank look was unseen by Roy whom suddenly leaned at the wooden tree opposite at Saiya's. She furrowed her eyebrows as she closes her eyes when Roy suddenly look at him and telling he have to go to sleep.
She suddenly directed her face at Roy's. "I guess so..." she uttered as she look at the fire. "Goodnight then, Roy-kun," she let out, oblivious that Roy is faking his sleep. She sighed once again as she looked at the fire.
Her head lowered down as she saw the beneath with small grass, she picked a single glass and played over it. She wanted to wait more minutes... she doesn't know when will she be able to sort out her feelings more. All she will do for now, is just think of what happened.
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Jan 28, 2011 7:11:23 GMT -5
Roy leaned at the tree and with everything that happened he was unable to sleep of course. "Good Night.." She didn't try to stop him. But why would she do that anyway? Roy turned to the side so that Saiya didn't have to face him anymore. Wouldn't it be the best if he just left? Would she be okay with that? If he asked her she would never agree to it of course.
But disappearing when she fell asleep wasn't the nicest way either, he wouldn't want to do that. It was an awkward situation between them, but maybe, hopefully Saiya will start to tell him the truth about her feelings.
Until then... Roy couldn't do anything.
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on Jan 28, 2011 8:00:39 GMT -5
Saiya looked at Roy whom has his back in front of her. She laid down at the blanket beside Gwen whom sleep so peacefully. How she wished to sleep like that. She smiled sadly as she turned her back as well on his. "How pitiful and stupid of me." she murmured to herself as she couldn't help the tears that falls freely into her eyes down to her cheeks.
She held back the sobs as she didn't want or let Roy hear it. If he have, she might run away from the place. She knows albeit running away and leaving Gwen here, Roy would take care of her for the mean time. Until she came back and sort out her feelings.
The placed her hand near her heart as she remembered Ryuichi whom haven't contacted her or tell her that he's leaving. It would be okay to tell her anything, but her she was. She have been waiting and stop... noticing how many years have passed she waits.
She still isn't letting go of the feelings, for it let her remember; albeit the bad things happen, there are the memories of the good times she wanted to cherish. Which means, she let Ryuichi be free from her heart. And she never knew, that in a place like this... in a country where all DD students came from would she give her heart to a young man.
"What will I do then? Baka..."
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Post by Syani on Jan 28, 2011 13:28:46 GMT -5
Snow.
A mass of snow suddenly rained down from the very tree Roy was leaning on, and ultimately blanketed the poor man with quite enough ice crystals that would reveal it is definitely not a natural phenomenon.
"I HATE TENKA!" A voice from the tree hollered out loud, and seemingly in frustration. That voice belongs to none other than the only half-vampire exists within the domain, Syani. Apparently, she was from Tenka, the arctic mountains, and got herself hounded by a new type of mob; bears. Large, white, frightening bears. So then she immediately transported herself, and ended up transporting some of the snow around her too, by accident.
Everything's an accident to Syani, after all. Even her choice of place to pop out. Well, technically she didn't choose this place to transport herself to, it just randomly works according to what she mostly need at the moment. Since she's freezing her rear off in Tenka, then there's a high possibility she transported herself somewhere very close to warmth.
Seeing the campfire below was more than enough for Syani to start brightening up.
"AH, HEAT!!" In a flash, the half-vampire leaped off the tree and landed right beside the fireplace, never noticing the lady trying to sleep nearby and the man that got buried under the snow. "Oh sweet sweet warmth.." she muttered, rubbing her hands together near the fire to warm herself.
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