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Post by Roy on Feb 23, 2011 20:24:27 GMT -5
Syanis glare certainly delivered Roy the thought that she did not like the question at all and Roy could have guessed that she reacts like that. Thats just Syani for you. "Tsk.." Roy let out a sound of disbelief. Of course shes curious no doubt about that. On the other hand her reaction kind of gave it away that she is still with 'him' and Roy couldn't believe that its not changing her in some way.
There she goes again with her questions. At least in one point she is right. At the moment its about Roy himself and not Syani... not to mention that its inevitable that they will also end up talking about Syani if Roy is finally telling what has happened.
Letting out a sigh Roy wiped away the last bits of snow on his shoulders. A shiver went through his body as he did. 'Great...' Roy moved a bit closer to the fire now as he started to freeze. Using the opportunity to grab a stick and poked the fire with it in order to prevent looking Syani in the face. "You want to know what happened?.." he started with a voice that faltered somewhere between frustration and happiness. "We have been talking about love... to make it briefly. But I only noticed that she really likes me after I have stated that I still have someone else stuck in my head...."
Roy coninued to poke the fire while talking. "She tried to hide it and didn't say a word. But its not like I'm blind and couldn't see it...... and then....... you appeared."
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Post by Syani on Feb 28, 2011 8:41:02 GMT -5
It's a good thing Roy distracted himself with the fire, because that meant he didn't see how Syani's face malformed into. Good thing too, she would've smacked him unconscious if she could see his eyes.
Out of a sudden, a scene from the Garden of Dreams flashed in her mind, and though she couldn't see the image vividly in her head do the her faulty memory, she did remember loud and clear what Roy had said to her once, "If a knight had found his princess, then that's it..."
Syani did not realize, however, she had spoken that out loud. She slapped her head, either out of remembering that out of the blue, or that EXACT thing out of all the other scenes.
"..Oh..dear lord...." The half-vampire had touched her forehead against her propped knees, finally understanding the confusion of it all. She can't just smack Roy to make him forget about her, like what she would have done automatically, but if there's one thing she learnt, is there's no such switch to manually turn 'love' off.
'What's more important is...' Syani had turned her head slowly facing the sleeping form of Saiya, and winced slightly. Just thinking about how she must have felt right now must be excruciating...especially since the source of the pain have graciously presented itself during that very moment, in the form of a hyperactive half-vampire.
How did she know its painful is because she had seen Roy breaking...well, she's the one breaking him, that's the 'fun' part. And now she broke another person, a girl this time, just by existing. Yay. 'Yep. Fate just loves to ram me over with the guilt truck.'
"H..Have you talked to her?" That's how Syani did it. It's almost ironic that Roy's in that same position as her as 3 years ago, and Saiya is in his shoes. The half-vampire can't help but to feel like the bad guy. On normal terms, she'd like that status, but now isn't normal.
No. This moment is beyond normal. Its utterly confusing.
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Roy
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Post by Roy on Mar 14, 2011 18:46:53 GMT -5
Roy was still poking the fire, but his movements turned harder everytime he pieced the stick into the fire. It was his way to deal with the tension that was rising up between them. Suddenly the stick couldn't bear the force anymore and broke. It was right after Syani has quoted Roy from their conversation long ago.
He froze in his movement, scenes playing through his head. Painful scenes. Who would not be hurt after being denied? But instead of giving himself into despair again a smile appeared on his face.
"I can't believe I have really said something that cheesy." Roy said with a grin before the small glint of joy died down again. "But what I can not believe even more is that you remembered it..." He didn't know if he should either be happy about it or not, concerning the fact that Syani has NEVER paid attention to anything love related more than she actually really has to. But who knows? Maybe the time, something or more like someone has changed her...
Roy didn't know that there has been a certain silence between the two of them, while both got lost within their thoughts. Only when Syani spoke up, Roy remembered again why they were in this messed up situation.
He flipped the rest of the stick in his hand to the side and took a glimpse into Saiyas direction. She seemed to be asleep peacefully... finally. Then at last, Roy turned around and faced Syani for the first time.
"As I said... she has hidden it until now. I did realize it, but you can't really force somebody to share their feelings with you if they don't want. So... I haven't had a chance to make her feel better yet... I can imagine too good how she must feel.........."
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Post by Syani on Mar 19, 2011 11:55:51 GMT -5
He dare cracked a joke. Syani glanced at him with a pair of 'are you kidding me?' eyes. It actually surprised her, because usually she would accept any opening to make the situation a little bit lighter, but perhaps her mood was brutally shot down at the realization of the situation.
"Yeah, well, my memory is a demented pool of extraordinariness that even I can't comprehend of how it works. It's quite frightening," the half-vampire let out a bland smile as cue to her monotonous tone of voice. Her eyes then followed where Roy flicked the stick while the guy looked over to Saiya's direction.
Then right at the same moment she turned to look at him is the very same second he faced her. 'Damn it, fate. STOP SCARING ME LIKE THIS.' Syani swallowed her spit at Roy's explanation, on his defense, and indeed, he has a point.
Syani closed her eyes immediately after he's done speaking, takes in a deep inhale, held it for about half a minute then slowly exhaled. When she opened her eyes, they seemed less cluttered and more at ease. "Okay then, let's simplify this."
She adjusted her sitting posture, and once she's comfortable, the half-vampire began her usual gibberish, "She can't control her heart. You can't control your heart. Nobody can control their own hearts, so no one is at fault for who's falling for who here. That's one thing." ...Okay, perhaps gibberish isn't really the right term for it. Blabbering, perhaps?
"Roy..." her voice died down in a whisper as she pulled up a hand to touch her forehead, "..Just don't feel bad about it, don't be like me. Remember the rose. ...She's bleeding, by touching it. As a friend, reach out to her and help her mend herself..okay?"
With one hand holding her face, only half her face is visible to Roy's view. Syani smiled, that same encouraging smile she bears whenever she's close to crying. "Perhaps you can sing to her that same song."
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Post by Roy on Mar 21, 2011 18:47:18 GMT -5
While the flames kept the shadows dancing over the two of them, Roy did not move an inch. His eyes remained on Syani as she was trying to come up with an answer. It was actually surprising to listen to her coming up with logical explanations regarding loves own way. But it was obvious how she came to that conclusion.
Roy leaned a bit into her direction after she lowered her voice and spoke of the very moment that has taught this lecture to the both of them. "And you think I can do that..?" he asked with a whisper. The question wasn't that much centered around if he could, of course he could, but more importantly was if he really should do that.
"The same song...? Like back then.." But the difference was that Roy had been the hurt one who sang that song. If he sang the same song to Saiya now it would only crush her even more. "I don't think thats a good idea.. for her sake."
Even Syani was taken into the mealstorm of emotions by now, Roy could see that and it made him feel even worse. He did not understand why, but suddenly it was the first time he was actually interested in how it was going between Syani and Kaekeru. Was it her face? The tears that almost come out?
No.
It was because they have never talked about again what has happened in the Garden of Dreams, which sealed the wounds and prevented them from healing... until now.
"Hey..." He let out, about to switch to topic into the exact opposite direction. "Are you both still together happily?"
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Post by Syani on Apr 3, 2011 17:17:56 GMT -5
'What kind of question is that?' That was Syani's initial thought of when Roy asked her if he's able to help Saiya. "Of course I think you can do that, why would I bring it up if I have doubts?" She looked at him almost sternly.
"And are we talking about the same song here?" Syani's focused gaze broke as she blinked confusedly at her companion by the fire, "Because I know you have like a stronger memory than me, but..." she suddenly smiled, "That song is perfect for calming people in their worst moments. ...In my opinion, that is. It's an optional choice, so up to you on what's best to do." It's rare for Syani to be considerate, since she usually force things out to go her way most of the time. Perhaps its the somber mood that affects her.
His final question took her by surprise. Surprise is an understatement, if she's not wearing her telekinesis-sealing necklace, something nearby would have exploded. What's unfortunate is she's facing Roy right at the moment when he asked it, so he could see perfectly how her face malformed into. Curse the lights from the fire...
"Whut?" That automatically escaped her lips, as if she wanted to make sure what she heard was right, but actually hoping he wouldn't repeat the question to her.
"Wh...what..makes you.... I mean, it's rare of you to be bringing out this...topic...all of a sudden," even by the way she respond, anyone can tell the half-vampire had lost her composure. "W-why are you asking such a silly question like that, haha.."
And everyone knows that when Syani had lost her composure, she would end it with a laugh. Nervous laugh, but still laughter.
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Post by Roy on Apr 15, 2011 14:33:04 GMT -5
Roy couldn't help to smile at Syani. She was obviously trying to help Saiya the best she could in her position. Still her lack of experiences with a mind twisted by love, because of her own refusal, didn't make her idea very clever.
A song with the lyrics 'Nothing's gonna harm you, not while I'm around' surely won't comfort Saiya at all, because Roy who sings it has definitely hurt her fatally.
If Roy didn't know any better he would have thought that Syani was about to choke. But it was her usual reaction to anything that had to do with affection.
"It's rare for us to talk about that, indeed. But who said I can't be curious about it as a friend?" Roy replied with a serious tone that seemed like a massive wall that opposed her laughter. Indeed he was being dead honest this time. No hidden thoughts of getting closer to her, no self pitying after the talk and no ambitions to torture her for their one-sided feelings.
"Please..." he looked her into the eyes with his as calm as the night around them. "I just want to hear it from you."
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Post by Syani on Apr 19, 2011 17:05:14 GMT -5
"Eheh.." Syani burst out a chuckle as an automatic reaction when Roy attempted to look into her eyes. She has been running all her life, ever the escape artist, whether it be with her mobs or issues she never likes to touch. It's odd because her life motto is actually contradicting with her usual methods. 'The best way out is always through, remember Syani?'
That life motto was said when she was 14, and it sort of kills her that she's not living up to what she hoped for years ago.
"Aw man, you really wanna make me cry, huh?" She continued laughing lightly as she toss her head up to face the stars. There is NO WAY she's going to look at this man in the eyes in this condition, in this issue, in this topic, in this moment.
With her head up, it's easier. Because she can pretend no one's there, it's just like talking to herself, and since the half-vampire does that a lot, this won't be a problem. ...Except that she's scared if something got caught in her throat when she tries to speak. Tears can do that.
"Nothing major happened, really!" She laughed, testing if that covers the convulsive gasps. It did. So Syani continued with not only a smile, but laughter, "He was kidnapped by the...other clan." That damn pause. Damn those tears is breaking her sentence.
"I dunno, he was...brutally tortured and... Well, to the point that he's forgotten who he is," Syani laughed a bit, bringing up a hand to use that cloak of hers to wipe her trickling tears, "Heh, and me.." She blinked continuously at the skies. If she can make ONE potion that can kill her tear ducts without affecting her sight, she so would.
"B-but he's okay though, I found him in Tenka recently. He...doesn't remember me, but..." Gasps, and more gasps, but her laughter tries its hardest to defeat it and kill it and burn it to a crisp. "But hey, I'm trying... To heal him."
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Post by Roy on Apr 28, 2011 17:37:22 GMT -5
The moment Roy gave her a comforting and warm smile he couldn't know that Syani wasn't kidding this time about the crying part. And of course Roy didn't think of it as a possibility either.
Her eyes darted at the stars when she slowly started to tell her story. Interrupted by little but noticable pauses where her breathing stopped for a heartbeat.
Roy could clearly see it, but now that he realized it was already too late. The Syani he always knew, the laughing and ever-happy little half vampire, the rose he once met, was slowly withering and falling apart in front of his eyes.
And he has been the one who cut it.
"H--" Opening his mouth Roy wasn't able to bring out anything besides a dry breath. He had no idea what she had been going through, neither he was expecting ANYTHING like this.
Slowly he crouched closer to her, who still stared into the night, and caught her tightly into his arms. She will fight it, he was sure of it. But still he just had to express what he wasn't able to form into words right now.
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'...forgive me... I had no idea..'
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Post by Syani on Apr 30, 2011 18:01:06 GMT -5
Syani holds back a breath that was about to escape through her lips when she felt a pair of arms squeezing her. 'Ah man, not again..' It was exactly like few years ago, what is it with this dude that can make her cry so easily?
The half-vampire released another round of soft laughter, semi-paused by a few gasps of air due to her annoying weeping, but kept her head held high and her eyes focusing onto the stars. "Aheh...man, you never changed."
She sniffed a silent "Mushy.." that was carried by her breath, grinned, then muster up all the strength she could possibly have to tore her attention away from the night sky just to turn and took a glance of Roy.
"Now... i-if you're feeling sorry...then don't. Things just...happened. ..It's nice to cry, once in..a while," she never weeped once during Kaekeru's absence, perhaps it's because she distracted herself before any form of gloom attacks her, so this is a good change of pace. Sometimes, keeping in touch with her emotions is a good thing, she reminded herself. And Roy's the perfect person to tapped into that shell.
Syani then brings out and arm to feebly push his head away, "And get off, hahah.. You KNOW me, this is so...mushily uncool." Now that she's gone through this, the half-vampire beams out that everlasting grin of hers, despite the hiccups, and announced, "I gotta go.. Apologize to Saiya for me for leaving all of a sudden.."
Telekinetically separating Roy's arms around her while using her own hands to wipe off as much damned tears as she can off her face, the vampire-witch takes in a deep breath, and muttered, "Thanks..for the tap-in. I guess I needed that.."
A sort of gentle wind began swirling around her sitting form, then it grows into a hale and trapped her inside a sort of mini-hurricane. "I'll see ya later, Roy~!" Her cheerful tone was back, but then for a brief moment it changed drastically, "..Don't EVER touch me again..not when I remember the taste of your blood." And a moment after that, she's gone entirely.
With a hidden riddle.
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on May 2, 2011 18:31:35 GMT -5
"Forgive me... I had no idea..." [/i][/COLOR] Saiya was fast asleep before she have heard that flying thought in her mind, making her eyebrows furrow in confusion. She let out a steady hymn of breathing... letting it fake that she was asleep. Though, beneath those actions... she could clearly hear what happened; of course they could never noticed that she was not asleep as her back is facing Roy's and Syani's.
Saiya could clearly hear the hiccups of the girl whom suddenly appeared in front of them. She could clearly hear what Roy's thought out came from and she could clearly see in her mind... surprisingly as this was a rarely ability she have behold. And never she have used it to help, that's what a rare thing she have done. But the most stupid, idiotic ability that was set on at the time.
It made her heart more wrecked, seeing that Roy have hugged the crying girl in his arms... she would never wanted it to anyone noticed, but of course, Roy have once noticed that everything is not alright. And she knew for herself that Roy knows what she feels now and what her actions affects her.
She tried to erase the thought in her memory, but the fate is cruelly joking... it keeps on repeating and the voices were all dull and blured. She wanted to get out in her thoughts... and a one way to do is to open her eyes... which she did. Her eyes cast in front, there was Gwen whom still fast asleep. She softly sighed; once noticing that the girl's aura have disappeared throughout the place, she waited for five minutes or so.
Before she started to groan, stretching her legs and arms; trying to imitate that she have just woken up by now. She started to sit as she looked down at Gwen, then around the place; rubbing her eyes a bit, turning her body to fully faced the lit fire and Roy's way. She looked around and see no Syani on the place. "Huh? Where's Syani?" she asked 'sleepily', looking at Roy with a confused gaze. Her facade were normal as it could be, one would believe she have just woken up.
But she couldn't believed herself she could act just like that, but trully in her heart... she really wanted to cry. She was confuse, hurt, embarassed and stupid at the same time. She rubbed the back of her nape and look apologetically at Roy. "Uhm, I guess I should apologize... since I sleep and all..." she let out, suddenly looking at the stars. She don't know why she needed to apologize, but that was her... always apologizing for something so small yet means big to her.[/blockquote]
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Post by Roy on May 11, 2011 17:30:00 GMT -5
Roy gave her a warm smile when she mumbled 'Mushy' and didn't make any attempt to escape or even twitch like she used to. It was just like back then in the Garden of Dreams. A moment of pure emotion.
And when she finally turned to him Roy could clearly see that she was already feeling better. He was greatful. But just when he was about to shove a little closer Syani already pushed him away. Roy did not resist and let her free herself while he let out a chuckle. She was Syani after all.
"You are welcome... ever and always. You know that." He replied to her words, not breaking the eye contact. For a moment there was nothing but silence, before Syani stated her departure. He was a bit surprised that she was leaving that fast but he didn't have the chance to say anything, because her last words made his facial expression fall apart.
And she was gone.
Roy wasn't moving an inch. "Since when is she making such dramatic escapes?" He whispered to himself worriedly as he stroke with his palm over his forehead. "..your blood.." He tried hard to remember that incident that occurred at the Creepy Steelpe. Afterall shes half a vampire, even though Roy sometimes forgets about it, and if she is hungering for his blood it would have severe consequences for both of them and their friendship.
"Oh man... could she mean... in the tower..?" Thats when Saiya slowly made a move and Roy almost fell backwards, because he seriously had forgotten about Saiya for a moment. Somehow he managed to kill his troubled and surprised feelings in an instant and faced Saiya with a rather normal face. "Oh..hey.. yeah she just left." He murmured to her.
Roy wondered how she would feel now after a nap, not aware that she has heard absolutely everything. "Ummm.. its okay, I don't take offense at it." Who would take it as an offense? After everything she had to endure earlier and who knows if she is feeling alright now?. He nodded at her worriedly and then patted the ground next to him to sign her to come over. They were still on the opposite sides of the fire.
"Do you.... want to come over here?"
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Saiya
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Post by Saiya on May 13, 2011 11:25:08 GMT -5
She look at him quietly and look down at her hands that was place on her lap. She look up at Roy whom asked to come over beside him.
She haven't forget.... she remembers everything, and it made her uneasy. But the guy whom she have started to adore request her... and she doesn't have the guts to not accept it.
She smiled meekly and nodded, quietly going at Roy's side. Once she was beside him, she took a sit and pull up her knees and lean her chest on it; propping her chin at her knees as well. "She.... was adorable," she suddenly let out.
Looking up at him to see his expression, she look away. "I-- uhmm..." she let out, sighing once... and twice; before formulating any words. "About what just I've said awhile ago... I-I mean no harm or quick decisions or actions to be taken...."
"I-I just let it out... it's okay... it's okay now. I'm fine."
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Post by Roy on May 15, 2011 14:59:38 GMT -5
Saiya took her time to come over, which is understandable in her situation because he has just seen Roy with another girl. And just now that she is gone Saiya is asked to come over. Of course, Roy was totally unaware of it.
With her knees pulled up to shield herself from any sudden emotions she was the one to speak first. Her statement stung into Roys stomach. Even though Syanis last words were still ringing through his head Roy had to realize that the impulsive Syani has gone and the girl whose heart he just broke sat next to him again.
Roy couldn't get rid of the thought that she was starting to compare herself to Syani, which must make her feel even worse. She also couldn't look him in the eyes while she blurted out excuses.
She did not deserve that.
"Hey.." Even Roy turned away now in case she suddenly want to look him into the eyes again. "I didn't expect her to show up all of the sudden.. and I am sorry for that.. but.. please stop torturing yourself."
"I'm sorry.. again. Don't apologize for..what you feel. Things haven't been that nice between us and.. its okay to be not fine after something like this.."
It was hard for him to form the sentences, because he knew that was just continuing to crush her again even if he had the best motives. But on the other hand, he could not leave Saiya broken and denying like this.
He turned his head to her.. waiting for any response.
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Post by Saiya on May 21, 2011 7:39:07 GMT -5
She let out a solemn smile, couldn't help to think that she shouldn't have said her feelings out. But... too bad, she already let her feelings out.
"I... really regret what I've did just awhile ago... a bit.." she let out uneasily, her brows furrowed sheepishly as her eyes shone deep hurt; and she doesn't want to let Roy notice it, so she look down more and hide her face by burying it down from her propped knees.
"Maybe... if I haven't told you about what I felt.... I could just pretend my feelings harbored to you is all but a friend's one." she murmured as tears sprung in her eyes.
"It really hurts... but, what can I do? Thins feeling just happens. I don't know when will I mend or how..." she look at Roy and smiled solemnly, her eyes close. "But please, don't feel remorse or guilty of what I've done. I can't bear to see you like that... it will hurt me..." she let out, tears started to flow down in her eyes, down to her cheeks.
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