My Sanity... My Humanity...

[Heero]

Heero, after a non-stop training paused for a bit as he wandered throughout the entire lake; he grunted in pain as he looked down at his white sando, blood seeping out as it tainted his sando. It has been a year since his wound have started to re-opened, and it still confuses him why the close wound for almost a year have been re-opened.

But suddenly remembering the old couple where he have been saved told him; if abuses his body from training, this will lead from re-opening the wound.

Heero, throughout the year have done a mild training everyday; not being able to push himself into limits. It's just that... this is the day he have pushed himself into limits... training into no end.

He frowned down at the ground, looking at the grassy ground in confusion as he let out a sigh. What has he gotten into? All he ever do was train... he look up at the lake and sighed annoyingly. There were thoughts flooding in his mind, and it confuses him; he never was the one to make all emotions burst out... and it confuses him more why he was being... confused.

"Was it the date today?" he murmured softly, taking a sit at the tree, leaning his back on the big trunk as he look at the lake, frowning. Ah, so that was it... it's the day his sister, he so love and cherish died... the sister that showed him he was still human after all.

"You still never leave me... my sanity, my humanity.."

[OPEN]

[Alessa]

Alessa once again visit the Aquair Lake to enjoy the scenery and also, taking care some of the Moonlight flower that she has plant near the lake. To her, this lake is special, since it is always the place that changes the event of her life. Thinking of the recent meeting with Shawn, she can only blush and shake her head to stop from day dreaming. She can only pray that he is doing alright.

After tending her garden near the lake she decide to take her leave. She can't always walk alone, knowing the fact that the assassins are hunting for her. She quickly pack up and starts to walk around the lake one more time before leaving the place.

As she walks around it, she found another pretty flower just almost besides the lake. Carefully walk along side of it, she bend to her knees and tries to look at it closer. It is indeed beautiful, almost like the moonlight flower, but it is smaller with yellow and orange color. After a while observing the flower, she realized that she is delaying her time leaving the lake. Just as she stood back up and fix her clothing, she spot someone near her.

Quickly she prepare her hand on her necklace just in case if it was the assassins that was hunting her. After having a good look at that person, she finally ease down a bit as he was not. "G-greeting mister, I'm sorry to bother your time but-" as she slowly tries to approach him to greet him, she noticed that the man is wounded. "Y-you are wounded! Are you being attacked? L-let me help you with it," Alessa quickly search a first aid kid in her small bag she always carry with her around. Despite getting late to return, she had to help. It is her nature.

[Heero]

Heero raised his gun in mid-air, he paused as he saw a small girl near him. He was more surprised as he saw the worried look in those dark golden eyes, it made him frown more as he saw her arranged some first aid it, which she seems to usually bring with her.

Narrowing his eyes, eyes twitching annoyingly at how the girl acts; he grunted in response. "I don't need your help, I'm fine by myself, girl" he snides rudely, but wincing in pain afterwards.

He cursed mentally for the sudden bleeding of his old wound, he tended to stood up, using his katana; as he did so, he looks down at the girl who continues checking her kit.

"Che... this is nothing... and mind your own business, girl." he let out coldly as he sighed and was about to stride but stop once he felt the stabbing pain in his reopened wound.

"Tsk... kusou..."

[Alessa]

Alessa can see how is that man was armed, and even shows the face that he doesn't wanted to be bothered. Alessa startled when the man told her that he does not need her help. Hearing the pain in her voice, she continues in taking out and distribute the needed first aid kit.

"But mister, the wound look serious, you shouldn't be moving with that wound," with her worried look, she refused to listen to him and still decide to help him even telling her to mind her own business when he stood up and tries to move away.

When his stepping suddenly stop, Alessa knew that he was stuck by the pain of the wound. Instinctively, she stood up and tries to catch him if he was ever to fall. Good thing he isn't. Fixing back her pose, she took out the bandage and some healing ointment and tries to go closer to him.

"If you really wanted me to go, then at least... let me tend your wound before I go," she know that it might be rude for stubbornly wanting to stay despite that person doesn't want any company, but she just can't over-looked the people who is in trouble. It is seems like she learn much from Mitsuko, in helping people in needs.

[Heero]

With the persistent of the girl, he did nothing but to paused and look down at the said being. A brave, innocent girl is aiding him, not afraid of what he have; a katana, revolver and his pride and cold attitude. Stubborn... like his...

He shook his head and sighed defeated, nodding gravely at the girl. Seeing how his day has become... edgy and down... might as well do something.. different. Heero went to back at the trunk and leaned his back on the tree.

He look at the girl with a frown, confused how the girl wants to aid a stranger... God knows he might be a killer that could easily get her life, but the girl stays near him and wants to aid him.

"Why were you helping me?" it surprise him, as he blurt the confusing question in his mind. He looks away, his eyes held those agitated ones, hiding the confusion and the embarrassment from his question. "Che,"

[Alessa]

Keeping an eye on that man's weapon, Alessa cautiously approach him. Despite wanting to help, she still being cautious as how Shawn advise her to be. Noticing that the man finally give in. She slowly sets up the kit nearby him. Soaking a handkerchief size bandage she just cut with ointment, she slowly applies it to that man's wounds slowly. After cleaning the wound, she starts to bandage the wound area. She flustered and blush a bit, since she is always the shy type of person, but for the sake to help, she brave herself.

As she tries to somehow bandage the wound, that man suddenly asked her why she helped him. She was dumbfound when he suddenly look away after asking a question. 'He reminded me of someone,'she thought. "M-Must I need a reason to help a wounded person? I just can't see a person in pain," she replies honestly. Even from when she is young, if ever she saw someone in pain, it hurts her. That is why, she wanted to help them, so she can feel happy when they are cured.

[Heero]

Heero grunted in pain as the girl applied to much pressure on the wound on his chest; the wound is near from the tattoo of 'OM', he looks down, watching the girl doing her thing from his wound. Hissing in pain softly, he growled as he looked away from the girl's gaze; stating why he helped him.

He shook his head, the answer, the actions reminded him of someone... someone dearly to him. "Che... Person in pain? What if the wounded person is a killer and tried to kill you? Would you still give him the pity?" he asks back. "Helping me is kind of stupid action you did just by now..."

He could feel the pressure of the girl; it's gentle, soft and slowly, afraid she could make mistakes. Despite the cold features and actions outside him... he was rather... grateful someone cares...

"Tsk."

[Alessa]

Alessa can instantaneously say sorry whenever if her tending hurt that man. She is trying her best to control her movement, as she isn't got used on tending stranger, let a lone a man.

She was startled on how that men denies her action and mentioned how stupid of her if she were trying to help a killer, would she still be pitying them?

"I don't know," she slowly replies. "I just... can't leave an injured person like this... Call me a naive person, but this is who I am," she said with a bit of sadness in her voice. "Also, you don't look like an evil person... that is why... I..."she stop. Unable to continue. Ever since she was a child, she can somehow tell if a person is evil or not. Unable to confirm it nor have prove to explained it, she can't just explained it to this man. "I-it is almost f-finished. I-i'll go as soon as I did," she stutters, almost crying. It hurts her when that man denies her action and his word confused her about her action whether it is right or wrong. She just wanted to help, that's all that she cares.

[Heero]

Heero paused as he looks at the girl, sadness in her voice have reached him. It didn't take him for too long that he have hurt the feeling of the girl who only wants nothing but to aid him. He sighed defeated, looking away in shame at his action.

He suddenly looks at the girl, hearing her stutter. He cursed himself mentally at the actions he did. For being cold towards the girl.

But... as he looks closely; his eyes softens... suddenly remembering a part of his memory from his clan.

"I'm just trying to help, nii-chan..."

He close his eyes firmly and sighed, he would never forget that voice... the kind of voice that the girl is using.

"Hey..." he let out, looking away as he felt her gaze on his. "It's... okay for you to stay..." he let out sighing, before continuing to speak. "Even if you're done..."

[Alessa]

Sniffing a bit as tears building up, Alessa tries her best no to cry. Rarely people would question her desires to help like this. It hurts her more as she unable to even defend it well.

As the man suddenly soften up and told her that she can stay after she is done, she quickly clear the tear on her eyes with one of her hand. "O-ok," she smiles happily, knowing that the man finally accepted her. With her heart at ease, she finally can tend that man's wound calmly until she finally finished with it.

"There you go, mister," she cheerfully says that after she finished with the bandaging. She then search her bag and took out a chocolate bar. "A-are you feeling hungry? I have this chocolate bar if you want it," she shyly offer that man her food. Then, she suddenly remembered something important. "E-eh, i'm sorry, I forgot to introduce myself," her face goes red as she bows her head. "My name, is Suzuna Alessa. Nice to meet you mister," she smile cheerfully. She hope that she can at least get to know with the man before she can return back. She likes to makes friends after all.

[Heero]

After saying those words, he looks down at the girl; the sad face turned into happy, her eyes were shining in deep gratitude and happiness. He have accepted her grateful work as he patiently wait for the girl to finish aiding his wound

Once done, the girl smiled cheerfully; suddenly offering him a chocolate, he gave out a look and sighed. "No... I'm not into sweets..." he let out, almost too coldly and suddenly realizing what he have done. He sighed and look away. "But thank you..." despite of his rude behavior and actions, he can still be... respectful.

He examines the work of the girl in his wound, and he's pretty much interested and amused at how delicate and great she did from wrapping the gauze on his wound. His black 'OM' tattoo is still visible despite the gauze.

He suddenly look at the girl who bows her head and introduce herself to him. Suzuna Alessa was her name.

He grunt and nodded, before looking away. "Heero... Komyoushi Heero.." he introduces, in a James Bond-ish way.

"You've done well from treating my wound."

[Alessa]

Alessa first felt down when he rejected her offer about the chocolate bar, but smiles back when he appreciate the offer.

As that man introduced himself, Alessa put her point finger on her left cheek as she thinks of something. "Then, I'll be calling you by your family name right?" she ask. She always tries to never disrespect people at her best.

Alessa cheeks turns red from the compliment and she gently bows her head and say thank you. "By the way Komyoushi-san, if it doesn't bother you, can I know how you get that kind of wound?" she ask with curiosity in her eyes.

[Heero]

Heero took a glance at the girl; he was interested on how the girl in front of him knew their culture, but irregardless of his curiosity, he never will ask about some petty things.

He looks at the lake in front of them and for a minute, he looks so peaceful.

But that peaceful look became tense when the girl asks about the origin of his wound. His jaw clenched and unclenched as his eyes hardened, looking at the lake. It has been years, since his wound have been given to him by his enemy.

"A gift from my enemy," he sardonically replied to the girl, closing his eyes firmly as he massaged the bridge of his nose.

"Now... can we end my answer from that alone?" he murmured, suddenly side glancing the girl into his peripheral vision.

[Alessa]

Alessa feel bad when Heero's expression got stiffen when she asked him about the wound. It is seems that he is not happy to talk about and only tell her few of the details. Lowering her head down as she felt bad about it. "I'm fine with it,"she said that with a smile. She is satisfy with the answer, despite wanting to know more bout the reasons, she don't want to upset Heero for being too busy body.

Packing her things into her bag, she decides its time for her to leave as she is late to return to her little sister. "I'll be taking my leave now, Komyoushi-san. My little sister might be waiting by now, don't want to worry her-"she suddenly started to cough. On to her knees, the cough was bad enough to almost make her lost her balance. With one of her hand covering her mouth and another one holding her chest in pain. It happened quickly, before it stopped. Her vision goes blurry, as she tries to catch her breath. Trying to fix her stance since Heero saw her condition like that, she don't want to make him worry. "I-I'm sorry... huh... I'm fine... it happens sometimes,"she tries to smile, despite how pale she looks now. She din't notice that there is blood on her palm that was covering her mouth just now. When she notice, she quickly hides it from Heero. "I-I'll be going then, take care, Komyoushi-san," she turns around as she starts to walk away from him.

It's an awkward and tense situation. She never thought that her illness will be seen by anyone. She always manage to control it and hides it. To think that her illness is getting worst, she had to be more careful from now on. She also hope that Heero din't notice it, because she doesn't want anyone to know. As, the illness of her... is fatal, to her life.

[Heero]

After side glancing the girl, he merely nodded at her comment; shrugging the smile she have, he could feel that the girl wants to know more about him, especially with his would. But good thing, she didn't initiate questions. It was a mere respect that Heero have noticed and is grateful to know.

Heero suddenly look at the girl after hearing her she'll go and take her leave; seeing that the girl is packing her things, he could feel... sad. No one have ever stayed from him for a long time, due to his cold exterior he was giving towards other. And somehow... he is sick of it.

Heero has a very keen ear, hearing the soft coughs of the girl; he turned towards her, confused, until the girl was on her knees. With his fast movements, he quickly went to the side of the girl; his eyebrows frown, aiding the girl. "Oi, girl." he let out, a hint of worried in his voice lace out. Despite the bad coughing of the girl, he looks at him and smile; despite of the pale face she have, she still gives him the best smile she could give. His eyes widen, suddenly seeing a same features towards the girl.

His jaw clench tightly, suddenly, memories flooding in his mind. Remembering his little sister who have died due to illness.

Heero saw the red liquid in her palm, before she quickly hides it from his view; he could also see the red liquid on the side of her lips. She was not okay... nor fine...

And Heero isn't that cold to notice or ignore this girl in front of him.

The girl leave his side, turning around and walks away from him. Heero stands up, looking at the girl; thinking whether he'll follow the girl or not. Pinching the bridge of his nose... deciding it would be best.

He quickly follows her; standing in front of her, though his gaze isn't on hers. "Where's the nearest hospital?" his question is nothing but a mere statement or order to tell her where it is. "I'll bring you to the nearest hospital." he quickly let out, noticing the confused and questioning look. And with that, Heero quickly pulled her into his arms, carrying her in a bridal style way. "Now quick,"